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Daddy, I've been watching you

Today while driving in the car we heard these lyrics:

"He said I've been watching you dad, ain't that cool
I'm your buckaroo, I wanna be like you
And eat all my food and grow as tall as you are
We like fixing things and holding mama's hand
Yeah we're just alike, hey ain't we dad
I wanna do everything you do
So I've been watching you"

I started to tear up. 

I got to thinking about our little boy. 

Nathan is 5 and is non-verbal with autism. He can say some words when prompted but cannot hold a conversation.


When I heard the lyrics I started thinking that Nathan can't say these words to his dad. He can't tell him with his voice how much he wants to be like his dad.

But with autism we have learned that words aren't the only way to show love.

Nathan constantly tells his dad "I wanna do everything you do, so I've been watching you."

He shows it every time he puts on his dad's hat.

He shows it every time he grabs the hair clippers and pretends to cut his hair like his daddy.

He shows it every time he pretends to work on his power wheel while daddy is working on his truck.


He shows it every time he pretends to start his bike with his pretend keys.

He shows it in every little facial expression or in the way he focuses so intensely at what his dad is doing.

So while the lyrics to this song brought tears to me eyes, I also smiled. Because to see how much my little boy admires his dad makes my heart melt.

The words will come one day...we feel that, we know that.

He's got his hero, his role model, his daddy. Someone to watch and learn from.

And that makes this mama so happy.


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  1. UnknownMay 14, 2021 at 8:06 AM

    You're all so blessed to have eachother. Hold on tight!

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